There's Nothing Wrong With Opening Up

Life is not always the easiest but from my past I’ve understood that I must keep my head held high through every situation. At the age of five my parents got a divorce and me being a daddy’s girl I was very distraught because I didn’t know how to handle it at such a young age. Well during that time my mom became pregnant with my little brother, who is the love of my life. Yes we have the same mother and father but we experienced different things. I was always jealous of him getting my mother’s love because she felt that he needed that more at the time than I did. I would always act like it never bothered me but it did, a lot. I never saw my dad as much as I used to and I used to cry at night. Being in a one income household with two kids to take care of was not the easiest for my mom. For about five months we were homeless and had to jump from about three houses just to have a roof over our head. Our financial situation was terrible but my mom did everything in her power to keep us together as a family. For a while, we weren’t as spoiled as we used to be and had to stay homebound. My mother struggled to keep us in Catholic School and I never knew why she would do that when we barely had money. She believed a good education and background was better than anything. Still even in seventh grade I was sad that all the other kids in my class had fathers that would attend our school concerts and mine didn’t.

It took some time and how I coped was speaking on it because that does help. All the time spent upset was because every one of my emotions was kept bottled inside. In college obviously I’m not going to lose a dad again but I can lose something much more important and that’s my drive to try. When I feel like calling it quits that’s it I don’t tell anyone I just do and now I know that there are people that I can talk to that will help me persevere. For example, as of right now I have no difficulties, but Erica time I think will help me get over the problems I may face in the future. All in all I learned that in order to get over things you have to face the situation at hand and find the right person you feel comfortable with and talk to them. Nothing feels better than relieving your stress and I’m so grateful for the people who are there for me in my life.